Dear People Who Keep Company With God,
As a child, I was afraid of the dark. Whenever I found myself in a dark place, I would run as fast as I could to the nearest light. There were times I would literally run from light post to light post. 
When I became a believer, my pastor, Harry Bizzell gave me a prophetic word that stunned me. He said, “When you were a little boy, you would run from light post to light post because you were afraid of the dark. This is the way your life was and the way it always will be. You will go from light to light.”
That got my attention. I knew God was speaking to me. I knew from that day on I would go from light to light, but I did not understand what that meant.
I have since discovered that this is the way God has designed us to live our lives. It is the way we get to know God. It is being transformed from glory to glory, from revelation to revelation, from encounter to encounter (2 Cor. 3:18).
It wasn’t long afterwards that God started fulfilling what had been prophesied. I experienced a time of great brokenness. I was in a very dark place. One night I got in my truck and drove as far as I could into the deepest parts of rural North Carolina sand hills.
I went to a place where the roads were not paved for miles and miles. The only light to be found was from the moon and stars. I did this on purpose. I wanted to get away into the darkness and have a face-to-face conversation with God. I was angry, confused and hurting.
Somehow, I knew God would be there waiting for me.
Little did I know at the time, but it was my encounter with God like Jacob had by the brook Jabbok (Gen. 32:22-32). Jabbok was a tributary of the Jordan. It was an out of the way, lonely and dark place.
Our Jabbok must be faced alone. You can cross the Red Sea with a mighty host of the redeemed that leave Egypt. You can cross the Jordan with the victorious army of the Lord all about you. But we cross our Jabbok alone. No loved-ones, friends or any person are allowed. It’s your private appointment between the Lord and yourself.
Jabbok means “a place of passing over”. It also stands for struggle, too empty and pour out. That is what happened to me. I poured out all my confusion, anger and emotions to God.
I wrestled with Him as to why He allowed my life to get so messed up. After a long time, I was empty. I didn’t know what else to say or do.
Then something happened. The atmosphere seemed to change.
The dust settled, the stars brightened and the dark night air became cleaner and invigorating. It was God’s turn to speak. He spoke and it was the most peaceful words I have ever heard.
He said, “My face has many sides like a diamond and you should spend your life getting to know Me as I chose to reveal Myself to you.”
That was it, but that was everything. I can’t explain it, but that answered all my confusion, anger and questions. I got back in my truck and went home in peace.
Nothing changed right away circumstantially, but it was the beginning of everything changing inside of me. God blessed me there (Gen. 32:29).
I faced the spiritual darkness, God and myself. I overcame the darkness. I overcame myself. I began to learn how to be light. I saw God in a new way and have been seeing Him in different ways ever since.
Many Blessings, BW